I’m drinking jim beam and cola cans, but nearly ran out (its nearly 8pm here in aus!), and will have to move onto the bottle next!, (gee, what a shame!), but, the cans are 440ml, at 5% alcohol, and the bottle is 700ml @37%alcohol, so, my question is this!, how much bottled beam do i mix with how much coke, to get the same ratio as the cans?.. and ergo, how much coke would i need to mix the whole bottle at that %age?… thanks in advance, might not be capable of typing them later!…
and, what %age do pubs make their mixes,
edited – a2.. i appreciate your effort, but you’ve misunderstood me, the bottle is pure beam, not mixed, but rated at 37%alcohol content…

So, the long and short of it is that I’m a new dad, married man, and this past weekend went away for an overnight excursion to Atlantic City. Had a phenomenal time (won 200 bucks, drank all day, hung out with old college buddies, and so on). Here’s the thing:

Now, I’m having these feelings of guilt about getting too crazy (drank all day…fully planned on it…and nothing bad happened, save singing some bad karaoke and looking like I was ready to drop for a couple minutes). Is this guilt I’m feeling part of being a new dad and away from my true responsiblities? Is it just because I got banged up? I feel myself analyzing it to the point of almost a ridiculous nature (keeping in mind I’ve always been hyper self-critical)…

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3 blackouts in the week. Severe intoxication the other 4 days.
I’m not trying to prove a thing. I had the shakes and was cold sweating last night after a week-long binge and I was worried.

I seem to go through some very defined up times and downs times in my life. I get really depressed and eventually really elated. (maybe a little bi-polar?)

I am a highly paid professional and work seems to be the only thread holding me together at the seams. Well that an Alcohol.

I have future political aspirations and don’t want publicly “admit” to any shortcomings in my mental health. My mind works vary well… my feelings get all messed up though.

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Well this is a 15 year history, I’ll try to be as as brief and concise as I can. Currently I’m 28, when I was 17 graduating from high school I started to have OCD related issues. Also, since primary school I had lot’s of attention and execution problems -mainly in the logical-matematical area- and was diagnosed years later with passive ADD. I may add that I come from a destroyed family, father not loving my mom, strict father, lots of fear to him, a brave mother dealing with this.

Enough of background history. The thing is that when my OCD started, my life was a living hell. Although I consulted with various doctors and tried medications, during 18-23 year period I was paralized by OCD. My OCD manifested as fears of HIV infection through ridiculous ways, ideas that I was contaminated and could infect and kill my mom. Added to this, when I was just turned 18 my grandmother, suffer a stroke that let her to bed and special care during this last years, until just 8 days ago when she passed away. I was very close to her, and I always, til her last day alive where there for here even in my worst OCD and depression symptoms. Then, on December of that same year (2000) my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer and had to be operated immediately. Luckily for her she survived the cancer, but, as many doctors agree, OCD even when medicated, as I’m know since 6 years ago, under stressful situations will aggravate. During that time, when I thought my mother was going to die, I felt responsible and guilty. I went crazy. Even when with my OCD out of control, I tried to achive a professional degree, but because my ADD and the issues previously narrated, I failed. I didn’t sit and cry, and made technical courses in IT wich is my passion, and worked through various call centers.

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I have al ot of anxiety especially in social situations and around holidays. Im also moody at times and use alcohol at times to self medicate anxiety. What do you think? Some of these things are related to childhood trauma and when i was a child i had ocd tendencies.