Okay right well im going to trey make this short as i can, but i would really like some advice and help or simular stories,
Well over the last i would say 2 years my mental health has deterioated very badly, i lost my nan and did not handle it very well at all, i then lost my other great nan, and things kept getting worse, drinking alot cociane to deal with the past etc, i was depressed alot of the time and thought nothing of it just isolated myself, in summer 2007 i sunk into a deep depression 4 around 3-4 weeks non stop, i was taken to my GP by my mum, and she referd me on etc, i was put on meds and aksed to go into hospital but i refused, they spotted psycotics symptons and metioned bipolar, i new nothing about it and refused to cooperate fully,so they then referd me on again, i was then placed with that team for the rest of my recovery, the ealry intervention team, they said i had svere depression with psycotic episodes, i became alot worse even on meds, they new about my mood swings and said it was nothing just my age, i was put on olazapine and fluoxetine, but the fluoxetine made me deeply hypomanic, and they still ignored that, so anyway change of meds to ailify and pregabalin and trazadone, nothing worked, it made me worse, The team hardly never saw me, and refused to diagnose me with bipolar or treat me for it, even after numberous complaints about my bad mood swings and paranoia and due to all of that, heavy drinking to cope, i was being drunk in college almosty every day and drinking every night, team still did nothin, they said it was up to me to get help with my alcohol, i mean come on seriiosly the state i was in? They messed me around with appointments and kept changing my CPNs and missing apointment with them, i then gave up cus they didnt care, and i then stopped taking it thinking it was not helping, although looking back it kind of helpdd a tad with the mood swings.
I tried to commitc suicide 4 times, one being severe eneding me in hospital, i was very adgitated and angry, but depressed and suciidal in hospital, which looking back was a mixed episode, the hospital was crap, did nothing and discharged me to early, my mental state completely went downhill, i was acusing people of all sorts, delusional thinking i was a ci agent when i was manic out to solve the countrys murders, i then was locking myself in toilets running away screaming in public with pure fear teachers were trying to kill me, and i was badly self harming, the school were deeply concerned and the head teacher even rang the cheief of local hospital to complain after all the shiteee support i had, they still did nothing, after a shed load of teachers and family members kepet ringin, a man from the crisis team met us, and he got his arse in gear for us, and i was placed in hospital. I think the support i have been given has been awfull, after so many comaplints and me being so ill, the clear signs how severly ill i was, and how i looked so bipolar from everybody so close, they refused to do anything about it, and i could of been well about 1 year ago, and the ladst 3 weeks i have only started to recover, after being in hospital, they saw how bad i was, it was in a hospital far away from my home, a specialised one for adoslents, and they said after even days of meeting me and observing me i showed so many traits of bipolar, and how i descrbied my past and symptons was so linked in, and they could not believe the team how they have treated me, what if i neevr got into that hospital, i might not of even been hegre now:?
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