Anxiety? Depresion? PTSD? Alcohol induced chemical imbalance?
Once school got out I my drinking, smoking cigars, and dipping picked up significantly. One day I started to notice some withdrawals so I chilled for a bit until they went away. Then I started up again accept with less frequency. Two days after my last drinking episode I began to feel a bit depersonalized and realized I could not focus in a summer class. It felt like there was some gunk in my brain screwing up my thought process. I really could not think like I used to. I also didn’t seem to care about much anymore. I began to freak out as if something was terribly wrong, and know I have figured that that made it much worse. My symptoms happened to coincide with a deadly brain disease so I was convinced I had it. I prepared myself for death for about two days as I waited to see a neurologist. I was pretty sure I had the disease and that death and much suffering were imminent. The neurologist assured me nothing was wrong. I began to search all day for a explanation of my symptoms. I saw a phycologist who suggested it could be anxiety. The symptoms began to occupy my thoughts constantly. One of the most distressing symptoms is that I have absolutely no emotion. No excitement. No drive to do anything. This is particularly distressing because I used to be as happy as a teen can be and very driven. There was a stretch were I was extremely anxious about my condition not going away before school started or not going away ever. This faded as I seeked anxiety help on the internet. After it faded I became very depressed due to the fact that I have no emotion. I am also very easily agitated. I have been trying to self diagnose for about a month now and I seem to be getting no where. Does anyone know what this could be? Anxiety? Depression? PTSD? or maybe a chemical imbalance induced by alcohol?
