Recently everytime I go out I feel so guilty the next day for even going out. Theres no shame in dancing but the alcohol and drugs that surround the situation is what makes it bad.
Before I did this i did feel a connection with God and Christianity and now I feel completely disconnected with him hes so far away.

I definitly need to quit doing everything that makes me feel guilty but how can i reconnect..?

I am very interested in issues of substance abuse & addiction, especially in differences between the genders.

According to National Institute on Alcohol Abuse & Alcoholism (NIAAA), about two-thirds of alcoholics are male and one-third are female in the US. Do you believe that alcoholism is under-reported among women because there is a greater shame in society for women who abuse alcohol than men or do you think that these statistics accurately reflect the rates of abuse amongst men & women?

i heard on the news he was in a club and everyone saw him falling over and stuff :/ i <3 his music and think it would be a shame if he threw it all away cos of his drinking

I understand why islam might have a poor view on alcohol, it makes people behave in a very wrong and violent manner, if you get drunk.

But heres my opinion, a little bit to drink, simple to enjoy yourself with friends or family, cannot hurt, right? Just some to have a good time should be fine right?

I agree 100% that getting drunk shouldn’t be allowed, thats very bad, but drinking in moderation, you still control yourself, yet have a good time.

Read the rest of this entry

i heard on the news he was in a club and everyone saw him falling over and stuff :/ i <3 his music and think it would be a shame if he threw it all away cos of his drinking(LoL @ Love his Music..)

I went to the pysch yesterday and although i do not think i am bipolar she prescribed me 500mg depakote extended release 1 at night for 3 nights than 2 per night, i came to her on an anti-depression that was not working a very high dosage of xanax and trazadone which I stopped taking because i slept for hours upon hours straight.
Anyhow, she wants to wean me off the xanax slowly, she stopped the trazadone and anti-depressent which I rarely took anyhow.
I told her I was very depressed, im very scared of death and dying and i feel like i live my life in bed and sometimes on a good day I get up move around a little, than loose control get pissed off, throw things and have crying episodes and become even more depressed than I was before, my family is seperating me from themselves and my marriage is failing, i told her i just wanted to get up and be happy.

She told me I had a different form of bipolar where i dont have highs but i have extreme lows and go into a rage, does anyone else have this problem?

Read the rest of this entry

ive known this girl for about 4 years. i dont consider us friends, we’re more of associates. she chills with me and i say hi when i see her but thats about it. im 19 and the girl is 14. i had no idea she was that young, i thought she was at least 17. she doesnt look or act her age. she has huge boobies, a big booty, she flaunts her goodies all the time, she dresses like a s l u t – she buys alcohol and smokes weed. [the liquor store in l.a. doesnt card people] shame shame shame anywho. she’s basically a ho. i know for a fact that she had sex with my cousin, 5 of his friends, and EVERY guy from this click and she lets people run a train on her. [a group of dudes wait in line to have sex with her]. she’s done that about 6 times. i know what she does is none of my business but i dont wanna see her be like that. she already has a bad reputation – she has no idea how bad my cousin and his friends talk about her when she isnt around. she honestly thinks they like her but they dont..they only talk to her because she gives them money, buys them weed, and she’s easy. i really wanna have a serious conversation with her about the things that she does. she’s been through a lot, she’s a foster child and etc. do you think i should talk to her or forget about it and let her do what she’s been doing?

One of my friends is a bit off, bad OCD, has voices in his head, lives in an open institution, but all and all is quite nuts. All this said, he is probably the most entertaining person I have ever hung out with, wild outbursts of song, dance, and other assorted theatrics make him the center of a constant party, not to mention his extreme alcohol abuse, which puts even a drunk such as myself to shame.

now hear lies the problem. He comes over, uninvited, and calls me, all hours of the night. It’s only 11:30 at the moment, but I want to wind down, and I don’t need him banging on my windows at all hours, or the phone waking me up at four in the morning so with him singing, or repeating one of his catch phrases.

Read the rest of this entry

What is your opinion on alcoholism? Do you think all alcoholics feel a pressing need to drink all the time, some of the time or none of the time? I believe all three to be correct. So many people have the wrong information about the different reactions people may have to alcohol. Not everyone processes it in the same way. Most people have no problem with metabolizing alcohol. But unfortunately, alcoholics have what I would call a physical malfunction. I know this from personal experience. In my younger days, drinking escalated from weekend warrior syndrome to a more frequent habit. At least that’s what I called it. I wasn’t in denial as so many concluded. The real missing link concerning what happened inside my body when I drank alcohol was that I was uneducated. I didn’t think of myself as alcoholic. I thought I was a problem drinker; even though small tremors in my life evolved to major earthquakes. Those earthquakes led to my decision to leave alcohol alone. I did so without any struggle. There was no white knuckling it or rehab. It wasn’t until years later during a momentary lapse of reason when I forgot how acutely sensitive I was to alcohol that I knew I was more than a so-called problem drinker. At a festive event where old friends converged, I decided to loosen up by having a few drinks. Heck, I hadn’t had any problems with alcohol in so long that any life altering catastrophes associated with it in my past were like a child’s long forgotten nightmares. To my surprise, I found I couldn’t be more mistaken. My physiology had not changed. When the alcohol entered my system my body wanted more. Needless to say I became intoxicated. I think I had so much sugar in me that I nearly blew out my pancreas. The shame I felt for weeks after was almost unbearable. I had thought of myself as totally clean and new before that night. Then that newness went away and I felt like I lost self-trust. Who was I? A drunk? During the following week I recalled a string of alcohol related events that turned my life upside down in years past. Those forgotten events now seemed as though they happened just yesterday. They surrounded and suffocated me. I was so angry and disillusioned with myself that I could not contain my grief. It took a while, but I had to realize it was set before me that I needed to forgive myself. After all I had learned spiritually, was this a test to see if I could walk my talk about forgiveness? Was the same type of self-separated ego I write about in my book asserting itself mercilessly by immobilizing me in guilt? Only if I allowed myself to stay suspended in its grip. I believe there are two kinds of guilt. There is the false guilt wielded by its twin—self-condemnation, and there is real guilt, which comes from harming yourself or others. I knew better than to condemn what God created, namely me, so I chose to use the guilt I felt. It led me to look closely at what I needed—information. My friend gave me a book titled “Under The Influence” by Dr. James R. Milam and Katherine Ketcham. The book is filled with statistical data on the reactions of alcohol on the physiology of the people who cannot tolerate it. Alcoholism is explained, and not as a psychological weakness. The word “alcoholic” is one of the most stigmatized words in the English language today because of ignorance. Maybe another word should be coined. But in any case it is the most used word to describe a physical disease that is often misunderstood—even by the people who suffer from it. http://www.jpdanna.com/blog

What is your opinion on alcoholism? Do you think all alcoholics feel a pressing need to drink all the time, some of the time or none of the time? I believe all three to be correct. So many people have the wrong information about the different reactions people may have to alcohol. Not everyone processes it in the same way. Most people have no problem with metabolizing alcohol. But unfortunately, alcoholics have what I would call a physical malfunction. I know this from personal experience. In my younger days, drinking escalated from weekend warrior syndrome to a more frequent habit. At least that’s what I called it. I wasn’t in denial as so many concluded. The real missing link concerning what happened inside my body when I drank alcohol was that I was uneducated. I didn’t think of myself as alcoholic. I thought I was a problem drinker; even though small tremors in my life evolved to major earthquakes. Those earthquakes led to my decision to leave alcohol alone. I did so without any struggle. There was no white knuckling it or rehab. It wasn’t until years later during a momentary lapse of reason when I forgot how acutely sensitive I was to alcohol that I knew I was more than a so-called problem drinker. At a festive event where old friends converged, I decided to loosen up by having a few drinks. Heck, I hadn’t had any problems with alcohol in so long that any life altering catastrophes associated with it in my past were like a child’s long forgotten nightmares. To my surprise, I found I couldn’t be more mistaken. My physiology had not changed. When the alcohol entered my system my body wanted more. Needless to say I became intoxicated. I think I had so much sugar in me that I nearly blew out my pancreas. The shame I felt for weeks after was almost unbearable. I had thought of myself as totally clean and new before that night. Then that newness went away and I felt like I lost self-trust. Who was I? A drunk? During the following week I recalled a string of alcohol related events that turned my life upside down in years past. Those forgotten events now seemed as though they happened just yesterday. They surrounded and suffocated me. I was so angry and disillusioned with myself that I could not contain my grief. It took a while, but I had to realize it was set before me that I needed to forgive myself. After all I had learned spiritually, was this a test to see if I could walk my talk about forgiveness? Was the same type of self-separated ego I write about in my book asserting itself mercilessly by immobilizing me in guilt? Only if I allowed myself to stay suspended in its grip. I believe there are two kinds of guilt. There is the false guilt wielded by its twin—self-condemnation, and there is real guilt, which comes from harming yourself or others. I knew better than to condemn what God created, namely me, so I chose to use the guilt I felt. It led me to look closely at what I needed—information. My friend gave me a book titled “Under The Influence” by Dr. James R. Milam and Katherine Ketcham. The book is filled with statistical data on the reactions of alcohol on the physiology of the people who cannot tolerate it. Alcoholism is explained, and not as a psychological weakness. The word “alcoholic” is one of the most stigmatized words in the English language today because of ignorance. Maybe another word should be coined. But in any case it is the most used word to describe a physical disease that is often misunderstood—even by the people who suffer from it.