It has been a long time since I have really been happy. However, I still carry on with life, and have no problem doing the things I know are for my own good. I am probably better at my job than anyone else where I work, and I work out daily. In fact, there have been some benefits due to my inability to feel happiness. I used to drink a lot, but without the euphoric effect, alcohol only caused problems for me. As a result, I managed to give it up all together. I have also stopped eating out of boredom, and lost 40 lbs. Though it has also been nearly impossible to maintain romantic relationships, and friendships have suffered as well. I have found that most people are simply looking to be happy, and if I do not share this desire, relationships are difficult to maintain. Still, I do not have strong negative feelings either. The best way to describe it would be that I do not feel much of anything at all. Though I do not know why. I admit that I miss the sensation of happiness, but I have seen that I do not need it. Is this a form of depression?

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