I’ve been depressed for quite some time now, and I would very much like to not be anymore.
I used to be the person who loves life more than anything else, and the one who counseled others on their problems. I’ve had depressing things happen to me. I’ve seen death on many occassions, and I’ve held dead children in my hands, but after Sept. 1st, I’ve done many many things that have led to a depression that I cannot fight my way out of.
On Sept. 1st, my girlfriend who I loved completely, and learned the true meaning of love, lost her father, leaving her bereft of most of her family. Her mother died when she was young, and most of her aunts and uncles passed away as well. Needless to say, it was a very hard time for her, and very hard for me as well, as I was unable to help her. She began to become distanced from the world, and from me as well, which began to break my heart, but I stayed strong for her, and to give her someone to depend on. However, she eventually told me that she no longer felt the same way about me, and wanted to take a break. Now that was devastating to me, but I still clung to the fact that at least I still had my beloved life to hold onto, my family, and a few close friends to confide in.
Well I began to do things that I greatly regret in an attempt to find something to fill the enormous gap in my life I now had. I drank even more excessively than I already did. I smoked weed for the first time ever, and did so twice. I lost all interest and motivation in college, and as such, my previously good grades plummeted. I betrayed family, and betrayed friends, and every time I did such things, my morale and depresion sank deeper, causing me to do even more things I greatly regret. I used people, and betrayed myself. I lost control of my rage, got into fights, and let loose my rage on people who didn’t deserve it. I distanced myself from family and friends, and even let my emotions affect my job in the Fire Department. I hurt many people, and lost sight of my future.
Now I know the loss of the woman I love in my life is the root cause of my depression, but it is not the MAIN cause of it. The actions I did after the fact are. I went from being the person who’s life was devoted to helping everyone else, to the person who hurts everyone else, and that fact I cannot live with.
Through my depression, I even considered giving up the one thing I held above all else: my life. I just would not consider doing it myself. I began to wish that bad things would happen to me, just so that I wouldn’t have to deal with everything else. I began to imagine myself being in car accidents, dying in fires, and having a bad reaction with medicine and alcohol which would cause me to at least lay in a hospital bed and see who cared enough to come visit. I began to not sleep, and I lost my will to live.
I am beyond all that now, yet my extreme loneliness augmented my depression still exists. I also still cannot sleep.
If you have motivated yourself to read through all of that, then maybe you know of a way to help me, or somewhere I can look for help. Any help on my above situation would be greatly appreciated.
so a few more details. after reading many of these answers, I realized that I left many things out.
1. (I might have included this, but I lack the motivation to check.) It is extremely hard for me to relax. My counselor has told me this, and has tried many things to help me relax, all of which have failed.
2. Megan (the girls name) is transferring to my school next semester, which has the potential to be disastrous.
3. Megan is seeing someone else now. She actually started seeing him 2 months after breaking up with me.
4. I don’t trust any medication that messes with my consciousness or mental facilities. It took me a while before I would trust myself taking nyquil. (When I did, I took excessive amounts, along with many other night time drugs, along with tylenol PM, benedryl, and some alcohol to wash it all down in attempt at relaxation) None of these helped me sleep, but they did make me quite unsteady in the morning…

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Do you border about dealing with your anxiety and panic attack once and for all? Do you encounter stuffs like – the feeling that you are able to experience a heart attack, panic when the plane is about to take off, panic when you are driving a vehicle either with turning left or right? Do you encounter shivering, hyperventilation or stiffness in your throat during this period? Do these conditions leave you looking so scary, making it difficult for you to make a move? If you encounter this signs, then know that it is panic disorder. This category of anxiety disorder consists of panic attacks which normally happen regularly.

When it’s left untouched for awhile it could get more complex, as in when you leave it untreated for sometimes it can become complicated. If you do encounter attacks in different circumstances, it’s likely that you may have a phobia as a result of a situation or an object which normally triggers panic attacks. For instance, if you do experience panic attacks while in a lifter, you shouldn’t think twice about finding an alternative route. Nevertheless, you can also see that going to the supermarket might make you feel over anxious and enhances an attack. Even a mere steady look at you by a man looking very scary could trigger an attack.

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Dealing with a panic attack is not the easiest thing in the world. To top it off, it is something that a lot of people have to live with. Thus, it can be important to know the answer to the following question; “What are the 5 best ways of dealing with a panic attack?” Although you may have your own ways of dealing with a panic attack, there are some things that seem to work for everyone. That means that you will always have something that you can do that can help you deal with a panic attack. Keep reading and find out 5 ways that can work for you.

Tip #1 For Dealing With A Panic Attack

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Teenage depression hits 5% of children and adolescents, as reported by experts. Teenage depression is serious and needs to be addressed when symptoms start to show. Unfortunately, it sometimes goes unnoticed and untreated because of a lack of understanding about the condition.

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Firstly, what is a panic attack? A commonly accepted definition of a panic attack is ‘an exaggeration of the body’s normal response to fear, stress or excitement’. 20% of the adult population have experienced a panic attack which if left untreated can become a more regular occurrence. Some people have one or two panic attacks and never experience another while others have attacks once a month or several times each week. Even the fear of anticipating the next attack can be quite overwhelming for most people.

Typical signs of a panic attack area pounding heart, profuse sweating, higher sensory alertness and thoughts racing through the head which can be brought on without warning during any daily activity. Other symptoms include a tingling sensation in the limbs and a feeling of faintness. All of these sensations are brought on by adrenalin flooding the body in response to a potentially threatening situation. Some people can get so panicked that they will admit themselves to the emergency room in the mistaken belief that they’re having a full blown cardiac arrest. In fact twenty five per cent of those people who are admitted to hospital for chest pains are experiencing panic attacks and not heart attacks. Panic attacks can come on very quickly and usually last for between five and 20 minutes.

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When we find out that we are suffering from stress in our lives, we do not always go for the right remedies and this means that we adapt our own methods that we constantly justify a being as a result of stress. You have two option when you want to treat stress and the first one is to do it the healthy way and the second one is to do it the unhealthy way. The healthy strategies of dealing with stress will require your personal commitment and effort while the others which are not good for you are easy and simple. You must be sure of your condition before you take any kind of remedy and a doctor is better suited to help you know. The specialist will ask you several questions about your life and hey will be able to diagnose.

Unhealthy ways of dealing with stress include the following. Caffeine is not going to do much good in your body and many people find pleasure from the black drink which is highly addictive. Although it will not cause very severe consequences, it will just have you flock the coffee house just to satisfy your craving but not to treat your stress symptoms. Smoking is another pleasurable and unhealthy way of dealing with stress. Apart from it being very addictive, smoking will leave you craving for more without any actual relieve of stress. Many smokers are aware of this fact UT hoodse to continue with the habit to where it leads them. Unfortunately, smoking is harmful to health and you will end up having more conditions above stress which might be even harder to treat.

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You know how there is rehab for people dealing with drugs, alcohol, sex, and etc. is there a place for people with depression? were you stay there and work through it. i don’t know if you would call it rehab but like treatment center i guess.