Like I said, I have dealt with depression my whole life. Now, don’t get me wrong, there are moments I have enjoyed. I’m not gloom 24 hours a day. However, the small amount of good, is not worth putting up with the large amount of crappy. So most of the time I withdraw from everyone and disconnect myself mentally from my body to not have to deal. Even as young as 5 I remember thinking “Why do I have to be alive.” Then my mind would go blank and I would feel nothing; suddenly I’d come to and remember that I had to live and get super depressed. Then I’d go blank again and it would repeat for about 10 minutes. I used to call it a temporary amnesia. I thought that everyone felt this way, it wasn’t until I got older that I realized that this was not normal for a 5 y/o in a healthy environment.

As I got older it got so bad that I couldn’t even sleep at night. I used to just stare at the ceiling and hope to disappear. Now I was always well taken care of and well loved, but all that did was make me feel even worse about myself since I knew that there were many people in the world, starving, homeless, oppressed that would have loved to be in my shoes. And all I wanted to do was get it over with.. So, over the years, I just got used to it. I just told myself I have no reason to be depressed; be a man, get over it, and make the best of life. I even had some times where I felt ok. Not great, but not so bad that I couldn’t deal with. I thought that maybe if I got a good job, bought a house and filled it with toys, went on vacations, that I would feel better about myself, thus making me feel better overall. Nothing. In fact the added pressure of being buried in bills just made the depression and anxiety worse. I learned you can’t buy happiness and that I was simply doing what everyone else wanted me to do, not what I wanted to do. I tried to reduce the pressure and anxiety with a less stressful(== less money) job and a simpler existance, but my situation in life had little effect on my mental state. I had no drive to accomplish anything because if nothing gives you pleasure, what’s the reason to do anything? My goal was to simply reduce stress and anxiety as much as possible. I also still thought about death about as often as most men fantasize about sex. (I was too full of guilt about upsetting my family to consider suicide, I just prayed for terminal illness or the like; that way it wouldn’t be my fault)

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I had drink a plenty of red wine every night for a year? Then I day I stoped and suddenly the second day I started to have insomnia. Almost 3 months. I try valerian and melatonin only sometimes works. Now I still don’t know the reason that I can’t sleep well because when I don’t need to work next day I sleep better. Maybe job stress.
Don’t say to me I need 18 months to recover.

This is my first question.

I realize I am a rare case, so there is no need to point that out.

I am almost 25 and recently quit drinking. I was a cronic drinker for the last 7+ years. I have not drank in 36 days (but who’s counting). It was very hard the first 2 weeks and I finally feel like I am not dying. But, I still have no energy and wake up with night sweats every night. Last week my body erupted in break outs and I have never broken out before. Other things have happened, my period was so intence with pain I was crying, and I have missed work with headaches. This was also last week. My question is, why am I still dealing with this? Could it be other issues besides detox? Can I speed it up?

Just a little more back ground, I also quit doing cocain at the same time. I was doing a lot everyday and had been for several months straight.

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I have been drinking about 1/2 to 1 bottle (a fifth) of rum everyday for months now. I am qutting today and the doctor gave me ativan for the withdrawl symptoms but I am still nervous and anxious. How long can I expect the symptoms to last? I have not been vomiting but I am a little shaky and have diarhhea. I had my last drink at 9PM EST last night. I already know about AA and am going to that too, but I just want to know how long I can expect to be physically ill and when I should stop taking the ativan. Thanks.

Im determined to stop drinking for good. Ive been a heavy drinker for 10 years and Im wondering how long until I can truly be detoxed. I drank an average of 5 vodka cocktails per day, everyday….sometimes more. I am drinking lots of water and trying to rest. ANy other advice is so greatly appreciated.
thank you

I have been binge drinking daily, 10-12 beers for the last couple of months only.

I have not drank in almost 3 days.

I still don’t feel good, lots of anxiety.

How long will this last, what should I expect?

Today is my 9th day without a drink and I’m wondering if anyone has any experience or knows how long withdrawal symptoms last. My worst symptom is bad sleep, I wake up every night 2-3 times at least from a nightmare or sometime for no reason at all. For the last couple years I have been drinking 3-4x/week, anywhere from 10-20 drinks a night. Please help if you have any advice.

A 79 year-old friend of mine recently fell and broke her hip.
She had three times the legal blood-alcohol limit at the time
and was known to drink regularly.
After surgery to fix the broken hip, she went into DTs. The
physical shakes and tremors lasted about three days and
she was treated with Adivan and Trazadone. She was moved
to the physical therapy unit.
The problem is she can seem very clear-headed but every
now and then she thinks she’s at home instead of at the
hospital. Or she might say that someone was looking in the
window last night or making a lot of noise in the backyard.
The nurses say it could be the drugs and pain medicine that
are making her confused. Adivan was stopped two days ago
but she still gets Trazedone at night and possibly Percocet
as needed for pain.
Before all this you could tell if she had been drinking but she
never was confused about where she was or thought someone
was at the window, etc.
It has been 2 weeks since surgery.

After getting out of a rehab center for 21 days, would one still have alcohol withdrawal symptoms? If so, how long would they last?

If he had consummed 26 ounces of liquer, how many hours does it take so there would be no alcohol in him anymore?