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This Strange Illness: Alcholism and Bill W.

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okay, i’m 16… and i’m pessimistic

first of all, people think that im weird because i enjoy jumping… as in jumping down flights of stairs or over the rows of seats in our school art’s theatre…

next, i don’t see how people have fun by going out and getting drunk… i tried it once, and i was utterly bored… and all i took from it was a hangover….

finally, i seem to feel emotion much more than other people… anger, sadness, depression and even love… nobody else seems to feel these emotions as bad as i do… when i get angry, i cant just drop it… when i feel sad, i can’t just smile and pretend… when i get depressed, everyone can tell… and im sure im the only person in the school that has ever been in love… everyone else goes out with someone for the sex… or the social credit…

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I have taken ex before and this weekend was my sixth roll and this has never happened to me before..

In all over the weekend i took 6 tabs. On sunday i felt the little hangover u get when roling the whole weekend but i was fine.

on monday came the depression and dizziness. I was having trouble focusing my eyes and i was extremely depressed and had ranom crying bouts. I thougt this was pretty normal and i wasn’t too worried about it so i ate a few bananas

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So a few weeks ago, I (drunk) danced with my (slightly drunk) crush at a party and later found out that he thought my friend was super hot. It set me into this mode of depression which caused all my insecurities to come out and me to reevaluate many factors in my life. However, me and his friend started becoming friends and suddenly the the previous party had come up in our conversation. I told him that I didnt remember dancing with his friend (my crush) because of the alcohol, and now for some reason I feel sooo good. It feels like the sadness has been lifted off of me. Why is that?

I really did remember dancing with him though.

“One of the very difficult parts of the decision I made on the financial crisis was to use hardworking people’s money to help prevent there to be a crisis.”

“In terms of the economy, look, I inherited a recession, I am ending on a recession.”

“So I analyzed that and decided I didn’t want to be the president during a depression greater than the Great Depression, or the beginning of a depression greater than the Great Depression.”

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i had nausea,racinh heart rate,trembling and shaking,and INTENSE fears all in about 10 minutes.I just don’t know what caused all of this.I drink alcohol quite a bit and tonight i didn’t drink so i’m thinking it might be withdrawal.But also i was concerned of having a stomach illness,and then when i got online to read about various disorders i just went into full-mode paranoia and the rest started from their.I’m fine now,but it was an intensely scarey experience.This is the second time i’ve had a panic attack.The first i had was from years ago.My dad had to reassure me that i was just that SCARED of my thoughts and delusions.And then for some inexplicable reason 5 minutes later after watching a bit of tv and pacing around a bit.I went completely back to normal…

I was already taking Effoxer for depression for 7 mos. prior for attempted sucide & was in a 2yr. treatment facility (voluntarily) for alcohol & drug addiction. Thank God I had 5 mos. sobriety at the time of the rupture! My hometown Doc. has taken me off the Effox. & relplaced it with Lamictal. Is it normal for me to be experiancing extreme ups & downs emotionally with this med.? Its downright scary! Will appreciate serious answers…Thanks.

1) Less may mean more. For people who sleep under seven hours a night, the fewer zzzz’s they get, the more obese they tend to be, according to a 2006 Institute of Medicine report. This may relate to the discovery that insufficient sleep appears to tip hunger hormones out of whack. Leptin, which suppresses appetite, is lowered; ghrelin, which stimulates appetite, gets a boost.
2) You’re more apt to make bad food choices. A study published this week in the Journal of Clinical Sleep Medicine found that people with obstructive sleep apnea or other severely disordered breathing while asleep ate a diet higher in cholesterol, protein, total fat, and total saturated fat. Women were especially affected.
3) Diabetes and impaired glucose tolerance, its precursor, may become more likely. A 2005 study published in the Archives of Internal Medicine found that people getting five or fewer hours of sleep each night were 2.5 times more likely to be diabetic, while those with six hours or fewer were 1.7 times more likely.
4) The ticker is put at risk. A 2003 study found that heart attacks were 45 percent more likely in women who slept for five or fewer hours per night than in those who got more.
5) Blood pressure may increase. Obstructive sleep apnea, for example, has been associated with chronically elevated daytime blood pressure, and the more severe the disorder, the more significant the hypertension, suggests the 2006 IOM report. Obesity plays a role in both disorders, so losing weight can ease associated health risks.
6) Auto accidents rise. As stated in a 2007 report in the New England Journal of Medicine, nearly 20 percent of serious car crash injuries involve a sleepy driver—and that’s independent of alcohol use.
7) Balance is off. Older folks who have trouble getting to sleep, who wake up at night, or are drowsy during the day could be 2 to 4.5 times more likely to sustain a fall, found a 2007 study in the Journal of Gerontology. You may be more prone to depression. Adults who chronically operate on fumes report more mental distress, depression, and alcohol use. Adolescents suffer, too: One survey of high school students found similarly high rates of these issues. Middle schoolers, too, report more symptoms of depression and lower self-esteem.
9) Kids may suffer more behavior problems. Research from an April issue of the Archives of Pediatric and Adolescent Medicine found that children who are plagued by insomnia, short duration of sleeping, or disordered breathing with obesity, for example, are more likely to have behavioral issues like attention deficit hyperactivity disorder.
10) Death’s doorstep may be nearer. Those who get five hours or less per night have approximately 15 percent greater risk of dying—regardless of the cause—according to three large population-based studies published in the journals Sleep and the Archives of General Psychiatry.